pain

i felt this before
but not in a long time
my heart aches
literally
like there's something there
grasping it
not letting go
help
it hurts so much
its like my body's not mine anymore
get it out of me
so angry
rage
wrath
feel like tearing things apart
feel like letting myself just go loose
sometimes not knowing pain is better
pain's slowly going
i hope it leaves
instead of this naggy feeling im getting
if i snap at you...
please understand
my emotions are raging right now
cant really handle them all
so if im alittle more short tempered
alittle more unhappy please do understand

will i smile again
will i laugh again
with them??
can i??
it wont be the same anymore
not by a long shot...