cell

felt more relaxed after cell today i guess
alittle more 'unhurt'
but oh wells
the pain will slowly go away i guess
but i still wish i could just quit sch for a year
want the time to think and well slowly recover
too affected to continue
a change would be nice
but well im too used to my life as it was
now im living in the middle
slowly plodding onward to the other side
the older side??
maybe
i guess
i cant stay the same anymore
things are now different
very different
too different
i cant brush it off anymore
i cant pretend it's still the same
i must move on i guess
otherwise i'll just rot and die like a useless person
i wouldnt want that...
oh wells just gotta busy myself till the blow is softened i guess
MOB time...then IDEAS
then well see how things go from there...
maybe start writing again...
been on my mind for quite awhile now...
but was too gloomy to write properly
CRS today was an argumentitive essay
just the intro
and conclusion
the body was in points form
was the first to be let off
cuz i was working alone
and i had two sides in me then
the irrational and the rational
the rational was for the statement
the irrational was against
obviously the rational side won
but at least the irrational side managed to get two arguements in
but i personally approved only one...
and whats more this point was given to me by my bro
stem cell research
i dont wana disgust you with the details
but if you wana ask me
or search online
or if you know him ask him
but just be prepared...
cuz this even goes against the morals of my irrational sadistic side
want to talk to them today
but they werent free ATM
but oh wells...
tmr or smth then...
for now they are spared...
muahahahahahahahahahaha
i guess my chirpy and cheery side is back again
:P:P:P:P:P:P
no more worries
no more cries
they are all in the past now...
thanks to those who help
namely them and noodles
these three helped alot
but i still got a question needed to be answered
the only person that can answer it is well...
myself
what do i strive for??
oh wells
for now ciao~~