done for

wanted to write again but...
i was thinking
and chose not to
cuz it'll end up sad anyways...
no mood too
ah wells
needed to pass time so well
within a few mins
the worst news had been confirmed
and well
i have nothing to say at all
cant say it surprised me
cant say it didnt
i had such feelings before
i thought it was my imagination
apparently it wasnt
being a very observant person
i kinda felt it ever since we started going out
i just couldnt stop it i guess
what had to happen happened
so well nothing to remember
nothing to reminiscence
i found out from a book
a way to programme you mind
to force yourself to forget
image the memory as a picture
imagine yourself burning it
i wonder if it works??
well i could try it out
but not yet...
too many things still remind me of them
must forget those memories
must remove those items
soon
soon
i hope
i can only hope
one day they will be forgotten
one whom i knew all my life
and the other who stayed by me for nearly four years
one day even they can be forgotten
and force myself i will
one day
one day
tears hardly suface these days for me
is it because i expected this??
is it because i finished them in sec sch??
is it because i hate them??
if i cry will it help??
doubt it
even if i cried my eyes blind
my throat hoarse
my heart burnt
i doubt it
but enough
pondering on memories such as these are pointless
they will be forgotten
they will be removed
impossible you say
well i beg to differ
first step complete
second step underway
when it reaches the final step i will forget them
i will move on
till then i can only hope
slowly...
step by step
i can scale any mountain
step by step
i can walk any distance
step by step
anything can be done
i will tear down the obstacles
i will cut down all foe
anyone in my way
shall perish
that is my move
that is my decision
never look back
never retreat
forever forward
forever victorious
i will not stand down
i will not back off
headstrong is my attribute
stubborness is my way
no one can stop me
nothing can block me